I’m a 16 year old female who lives with my mom for the time being until my dad gets back on his feet so i could come and stay with him. Ever since i started staying with my mom she’s already caused stress on me by body shaming me,saying my dad failed me at raising me,i’m junky,and more. Me and my mom never really had a tight bond because she used to abuse me and at 12 i started to harm myself because it was the only way i knew how to cope..my dad actually helped me get out of those ways and started taking me to therapy and it was great i even became 3 years clean and i’m so proud of myself. On Tuesday my mom picked me up from work yelling telling me how she hates taking care of me,she can’t wait to get rid of me,and that I’m ungrateful because my friend told me i’m always welcomed to stay with her. I should add that i have a job because my mom ‘can’t afford me’. So i have to basically take care of myself by buying clothes,underwear,perfume,soap,and hair. My dad drives trucks over the road so he’s always in different states yet he still sends me 100$ weekly so i can buy things i need. My mom says my dad doesn’t do shit for me and that he’s always making her do everything for me which isn’t true. On that Tuesday night my mom made me so upset to the point i was crying and trembling as i was doing that i tried to find something sharp and i did which obviously took a wide turn. My mom came in the room just to yell at me and my Nana came in to aid me and comfort me while all my mom did was say “You got issues and I can’t handle that,i have my own issues to deal with so why would i deal with yours?” I was so hurt because instead of an apology she just invalidated me and basically said she didn’t care enough to care for my mental health. After that she hid the knifes and razors from me and i was sort of annoyed but i did it to myself and Wednesday night she came home and hugged me and she said that she was sorry and she doesn’t know how to react or deal with something like that. I wanted to cry because I don’t know how to feel about the apology.