I’ve been married to my husband for 5 years, and he’s the person I’ve always imagined spending my life with. But during a rough patch in our relationship—when stress, miscommunication, and distance began to take over—I made a choice I’ll regret for the rest of my life. I started an affair with one of his friends, someone he trusted. It went on for two years, and eventually, the truth came out.

The day he found out was the hardest day of my life. Seeing the pain in his eyes, hearing the hurt in his voice, and knowing that I was the one who caused it—it broke me. He’s devastated, and I can’t blame him. I shattered the trust we’d built together, and now, I don’t know if we’ll ever be able to rebuild it.

I’ve spent so much time reflecting on what I did and why. It wasn’t about love for the other person; it was about my own insecurities, my need for validation, and my failure to communicate what I was feeling to my husband. I let my own selfishness override the vows I made to him, and now, I’m left with nothing but regret.

But I don’t want to give up on us. I still love him deeply, and I want to show him how much he means to me. I’ve ended the affair completely, and I’ve been taking steps to address the issues within myself that led me to this. But I know it’s not enough. The betrayal cuts deep, and I don’t know how to help him heal from the pain I caused.

Is there a way to rebuild what we had? To earn back his trust and show him that I’m committed to our marriage? I don’t want this to be the end of our story, but I know the path forward won’t be easy. I just want to prove to him, through actions, not just words, that our love is worth fighting for.