It’s painful to feel unwanted in my own marriage. My husband has lost interest in me, and I don’t know if it’s something I did or if I’m just not what he wants anymore. I keep replaying moments in my head, searching for clues—when did things change? When did I become someone he could so easily overlook?

There was a time when he couldn’t keep his hands off me, when he would pull me close just to steal a kiss or tell me how beautiful I looked. Now, his touch is absent, his words are distant, and I feel like a ghost in his life. I try to get his attention, to reconnect, but nothing seems to work. He doesn’t notice when I put effort into my appearance, and when I reach for his hand, he pulls away without even realizing it.

At night, I lay beside him, listening to his steady breathing, wondering if he ever thinks about what’s happening to us. I want to ask him why—why he no longer looks at me the way he used to, why I feel like a burden instead of a partner. But I’m terrified of the answer. What if he tells me he doesn’t love me anymore? What if he’s already moved on emotionally, even if he’s still physically here?

I don’t know how much longer I can keep pretending that this is okay, that I’m okay. Because the truth is, I’m not. I feel abandoned in a marriage that was once filled with love, and I don’t know how to find my way back.