I miss feeling wanted in my marriage. My husband’s indifference makes me wonder if I’m just not good enough for him anymore.
There was a time when his eyes would light up when he saw me, when his touch was filled with warmth and desire. Now, his gaze barely lingers, his touch feels absent, and our conversations have become nothing more than routine exchanges about schedules and responsibilities. The love that once felt effortless now feels like a distant memory, slipping further away no matter how much I try to hold on.
I still put in the effort—I dress up, I try to engage him in conversations, I make time for just the two of us. But it feels like I’m the only one trying. He doesn’t notice when I wear his favorite perfume or when I take extra care with my appearance. When I reach for his hand, he pulls away absentmindedly, as if my touch no longer matters. The rejection stings, but what hurts more is the realization that he doesn’t even seem to notice the distance between us.
I lie awake at night, wondering what changed. Was it me? Did I become boring, less desirable? Or is it something else—something unspoken, something he won’t say out loud? The silence between us is heavier than words, and it leaves me questioning everything. I don’t want to beg for his attention, but I can’t keep pretending that I don’t crave it. I just want to feel wanted again.