My husband was gone for the weekend, and I wanted to cheat. Plain and simple. I wanted someone to use me, fuck the hell out of me, and leave it there. Well I met up with someone that posted on a local subreddit. We exchanged a good bit and I decided to meet him late that night for a late night booty call. Don’t pay attention to my grammar. I am not caring at this point. Anyway, I go to his house, he sneaks me into the back door because he has a ring doorbell. I know to start with, this was a stupid idea. I did it anyway. Well I freshened up in his bathroom because I had been at work all day. After I freshened up I saw no need for small talk. I came out with the towel wrapped around me. He seemed to be pleased. If you know what I mean. Well.we went to the room and he undressed and sat on the edge of the bed. I went down to suck his dick. I did about 3 to 4 strokes and he lifts me up and scoots back.on the bed. I am not sure what he is wanting. He isn’t telling me, so I straddle him to ride. He could have wanted 69 but didn’t say. Well I go to put him in and it goes limp. I ask, are you okay. He says yeah. So I roll off not sure what to do. He goes down on me for a little while. It was okay, never really hit the spot, but that was fine. I pretended it was good. Well he gets hard from that. Starts fucking me doggy, that was pretty good. I am not a big doggy style person. Don’t like to think about them looking at my asshole. But I rolled with it. Then he has me lay on my back and he does a modified missionary style. 1 leg up to my face. 1 leg over to the side, he is laying across it and kind of under me, to get in deep. That was pretty good. I could feel him hitting bottom. I like that. Getting into it good at about 3 minutes into this fucking he stops, but I don’t stop flexing my kegels, so he jumps up and sprays cum on the floor. Yes it was unprotected, why I thought he was married and hadn’t been with anyone else, plus I am near 50 and can’t get pregnant. Well he doesn’t know my age at this point. He has just seen pictures of me. So I think why did he do that?. Guess he was scared of getting me pregnant. it is the only thing I can fathom. Anyway, he lays next to me and says, “Give me a few minutes, and I can go again.” Then he goes back down on me. I do the whole pretend thing. After a good while of that. He says, “It has been a very long day, I don’t think I can go again.” I was like, no problem. We talked a minute or 2. I tell him my age. He really doesn’t say anything. I say we’ll. I am going to get dressed now and go. I was gonna go never to be seen or heard from again. He says as I am leaving. I am looking for an fwb. If you want to have the next 10 days free. Maybe we can get together. We’ll I don’t think I could. He walked me halfway and then at the end of his gate. Stopped, said okay bye. Boom! I go on about my way. Thought about a few things I liked about the night. Like he kept his eyes on me the entire time, he kissed my belly(mmm). Okay, those were it. So I thought, well, he was nervous. I made a little time the next day. I messaged him. Remember, he says I have 10 days. Let me know. Crickets. I even messaged again just in case the notification got cleared and he didn’t realize it. Because you know you can’t tell if they have read a dm. So I was like, okay. I got with a girlfriend that night instead. Had a lot of fun then. I thought we’ll maybe he was embarrassed, I will send him a message and talk to him about what I enjoyed about the night. Crickets, then come to find out he blocked me. Now why would he say when I am leaving, “I want an fwb, ” “Will you?” Then ghost me. So now moral of the story, cheat and get fucked up in the head. I went from feeling I am an attractive older woman. To feeling like I am hideous and not even fuckable. I hate not knowing what the problem was. I would rather someone say, “you ain’t got enough ass for me”, or :your pussy is too fat for me”, or “you just ain’t my type” or shit even “you are too old for me”. Then sitting here wondering exactly what is wrong with me. That is some fucked up karma right there!