I’ve been married for 10 years. My husband used to treat me badly and cheat, but I was young, so I forgave him and went on to have children and a life with him. About 5-6 years in, I started having feelings of resentment and would have urges to reach out to other men behind his back. All I eventually could think about when having intimate moments with my husband was how unfulfilled and disconnected I felt.

The resentment festered, and I found myself daydreaming about what it would be like to be with someone who truly appreciated and respected me. I began to flirt with the idea of reconnecting with old friends and making new ones, seeking the emotional validation I so desperately craved.

One night, after another argument with my husband, I finally gave in to the temptation and messaged an old college friend. Our conversation was innocent at first, but as we talked more, it became clear that he still had feelings for me. For the first time in years, I felt desired and valued.

This secret relationship provided a temporary escape from the pain and loneliness I felt at home. Yet, it also left me with a sense of guilt and confusion. I loved my children and wanted to maintain a stable family for them, but I couldn’t ignore the growing dissatisfaction in my marriage.

As months passed, I realized I couldn’t continue living a double life. I had to make a choice—either confront my husband and try to rebuild our relationship or leave and pursue the happiness I deserved. The path ahead was uncertain, but I knew I had to take control of my life and make a decision that would bring me true fulfillment.