I’ve been married for 10 years. In the beginning, my husband treated me poorly, often cheating on me. I was young and naïve, so I forgave him, hoping that things would get better. We went on to build a life together, had children, and settled into what seemed like a normal routine. But as the years passed, something within me began to change. Around 5 or 6 years into the marriage, I started feeling this deep resentment toward him.

The memories of his betrayal never truly left me, and they began to fester, gnawing at the edges of my thoughts. I found myself increasingly bitter, questioning the choices I had made. Eventually, those feelings turned into something darker. I began having urges to reach out to other men behind his back, seeking the attention and affection I felt he had stolen from me. It started as just a fleeting thought, but soon, it was all I could think about when we were intimate. The desire to be desired, to be wanted by someone who wasn’t him, consumed me.

This quiet rebellion grew stronger every day, and I knew it was only a matter of time before I acted on it, even if it was just to feel alive again.