Lately, I’ve been feeling invisible in my own marriage. It’s as if I’ve faded into the background, just another part of my husband’s daily routine—seen but unnoticed, present but unacknowledged. The way he used to look at me, the way his touch used to linger, the way he used to make me feel special—it’s all disappeared, replaced by silence, distance, and indifference.
I catch myself watching him, searching for signs that I still matter. But he hardly notices. Our conversations have turned into practical exchanges—What do you want for dinner? Did you pay that bill?—devoid of the warmth and laughter that once made us feel like partners, like lovers. When did we stop being that? When did I stop being someone he was excited to be around?
I try to dismiss the thoughts, but they creep in late at night when I lie beside him, feeling lonelier than if I were sleeping alone. Am I not enough? I wonder if I’ve changed in ways that made him lose interest or if something—or someone—else has taken his attention.
I don’t know how to break through this silence between us. Do I confront him, risking hearing something I’m not prepared for? Do I wait, hoping he’ll eventually notice me again? Or do I start preparing myself for the painful truth—that I may already be lost to him, even if I’m still right here?